I had some motivation once, but of course it was flawed.
Depths of human depravity still leave me awed.
Lies that people tell you and the lies you want to hear
Both mix inside your fucking brain until sanity disappears.
I once had a castle, walls all painted black.
I left it on accident and never found my way back.
Though my hearts still beating it feels frozen in the snow.
The sickly heat smells sickly sweet wafting in your nose.
The sentences I want to say will fall upon blank stares.
The hidden meaning of the words are not for those who care.
The light keeps dimming, darkening, the further you are from home.
Until darkness is all you have, darkness… all alone.
If I only had a service I could render you some aid.
As it is I left early from the pageantry and parade.
While all the others gawked and stared I felt the pain within.
With one last breath I finally found the answer to my sin.
Pride has been my undoing, envy my defeat.
Sloth and wrath and gluttony were just an extra treat.
Greed has made me lose my way, all the way back to you.
Lust is what I wanted most, which is another use.
A cacophony of voices all speaking, saying nothing you didn’t already know.
The heart only wants what the heart can’t have and then it’s time to go.
Memories have parched my mind and love is my eternal curse.
When I’m gone, you’ll know I was wrong, but I knew it first.